Trish Austin-About Me

Writer, blogger and recently diagnosed with cyclothymia. Bipolar II. I know, what is that? and can I catch it? It’s Bipolar II’s Lil Sister. But, she can be one trouble maker. Not a sweetie pie like my little girl. Currently I’m battling a depression-in bed -type for 3 months. My doctors are pulling out all the stops. I’m seeing them every 2 weeks. My therapist calls me the canary in  the coalmine because all the meds work different on my brain than on everyone else’s. He says this with kindness. The depression disappeared like it appeared. Mysteriously poof it was gone.

Aside from this horrid depression, when I was 8-35 I suffered from trichotillomania. I pulled my eyelashes out. Sometimes eyebrows. Maybe hair. But, always eyelashes. I inherited my dad’s eyelashes. They were dark and 1.5 inches long. Well, medication has rid me the unconquerable impulse to pull. So, I have eyelashes and eyebrows. Thank God they were thick. Or I’d probably have nothing left.

Former neat freak and germ phobe. Now my doctors would like to see some of that neat freak come back. It’s funny. They medicate you and then the medicine works too well/then they tell you well now gooooo back. Let’s see if you can be a little like you were before-What? When I had migraines when everything in my kitchen was in total order. When I vacuumed no less than once a week-my 35oo sq ft home blah blah I killed that person and I’m happy she’s gone. Now you want part of her to come back?

Phobias-shoe stores. No body touchin my feet-gross. Handwriting phobia-writing where people could see me. Especially my signature.  These are now controlled with meds..

Social anxiety. Meeting any new people. Especially women was difficult for me. Until this depression hit me, this was not a problem any more. I’m sure I’m missing some of my eccentricities.

Resume   About me-

I have a B.S. from University of Houston in Psychology. I attended  South Texas College of Law. I completed 1.5  years. Then, motherhood called me-I got knocked up. I had intended to go back. But, the stress was too much for me to handle. And, I got divorced too.

I write for Helium.com…to improve my writing skills. So, I can enter writing contests coming up. And one day  start a book. I have enough material in my head to right 5 books.

I’m 45 and have been married 3 times. My current husband has been laid off from his job -husband job situation looking good ( June 2010) and I can’t work. As my therapist says I’m barely reliable to get in his schedule. I’ve raised children all my life. So disability is out of the question.  This is where I wish I came from a family who has money. Oh, my family would have money. But, my mom spends it on all the stray animals she brings into her home and around her home. But, I won’t get started on the hoarder in the family. I can’t be too hard on my mom. She has a lot to deal with in her own life. And, really all of her animals are getting so old/as long as she doesn’t replace them. She’ll be doing well.

I pray my children-2 daughters don’t inherit what I have – that’s my nightmare. My oldest has Trich.. She handles it a lot better than I did when I was her age-but we talk about it. She knows she’s not a “freak”. Unlike myself when I was her age. I don’t know how I accomplished what I did when I younger. I was a nervous wreck to say the least.

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Little Miss Sunshine
    Jul 02, 2010 @ 02:14:43

    Christ, I didn’t realise that Cyclothymia could affect a person in such a way. The little information I can find on the internet implies that the depression is mild… Is what you suffer from mild?
    Christ.

    Not in the mood to sift through all your posts… But I would like to know how frequently you have mood episodes and how long they last, if you don’t mind me asking.

    x x

    Reply

    • onenewbrainplease
      Jul 02, 2010 @ 09:51:02

      No, I don’t mind you asking at all. I’m a little confused about my diagnosis. Because you’re right the depression shouldn’t last that long. My latest had lasted for 3 months. Except for a rare day on a new med that I hadn’t started to have a horrible reaction.

      For the last week and a half, my depression has lifted. I have no clue why. I’ve added fish oil called OM3. My pdoc just says that with mood disorders it’s best to look at them as a spectrum/at a certain point I may “slide” to BP II symptoms.

      Thanks for commenting.

      Reply

      • Little Miss Sunshine
        Jul 04, 2010 @ 08:16:09

        It shouldn’t last that long for cyclothymia? Really?

        Wahey! 😀
        That’s what we like to hear! I hope it stays good! Keep nomming those OM3 pills and sleeping well and everything else that might be helpful! 😀

        My pleasure my dear! 😀

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