It was clear the Effexor was too much for my body to handle. But, I can feel my mood slipping. I’m crying  off and on. Pessimistic about things. I am  too old for this crap-45. I don’t know how I got through life so well. T,hen crash my brain went to hell. I went to college. I went to law school. Had kids. Been through two marriages. And now in the last few years my mind decides to go totally depressive. I don’t get it. I once had so much hope and positivity in my spirit. For the majority of my life  I was happier than sad. Medication free. It’s complicated. I was once so strong. Now I feel like a limp dishrag.